I’m often complimented on my efforts as a mother, an entrepreneur, my motivation, or general need to be ‘doing’. I believe part of the reason for this is just how I was raised. I was brought up by an entrepreneur (big ups, dad) and a true leader and boundary pusher (holla, mama 😎)!
The other side of the coin is due to my disability. I HATE asking for help. I HATE feeling weak. I HATE feeling like ‘I can’t’. Hate, hate, hate.
That being said, sometimes I really do need help and I do have to ask for it.
Even if life was different and I wasn’t disabled, I don’t think I would ever be satisfied living a ‘regular’ nine to five kind of life. I’m pretty sure I still would’ve switched careers and directions multiple times just because… why not? But I do think that having a disability has multiplied my drive by like, a million.
If I were able bodied and had to ask for help, I’m pretty sure it would be a simple act. Since that’s not the case, I find myself pushing extra hard to get things done to prove to myself that I CAN. For example, I would probably never think to rearrange furniture on my own but since it’s assumed I can’t, I feel like now I HAVE TO. Same with my job. Same with my family. Same with my activities. Same with basically everything.
I’m in my forties now. I’m fucking tired. My body hurts. I find myself saying, “I don’t want to work anymore, I just want to chill,” but the reality is, I wouldn’t. I don’t think I have it in me.
Being disabled in any way basically affects you in one of two ways. Either you give up and sit on the couch 24/7 binging Netflix and whining about how unfair life is OR
You push extra hard to make sure you are never viewed as less than equal. Oddly enough, *not many people with a life altering impairment fall anywhere in the middle.
*this is based on my own observations, not facts, but I feel confident enough to commit to that.
You might think this is an exaggeration, but it’s really not. I’m thankful I wound up on the right side of the coin. I’m glad hard work and motivation were ingrained in me from a young age. I guarantee I hustle harder than a lot of people who can potentially do so much more and chances are, I always will.
So stay tuned, you never know what’s next 😜 #hustle #nothanks #sorrynotsorry #makeithappen #workforit
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